Distractions of the Heart

From 1/19/2008
I haven't blogged in quite a while. I guess, as the title of this blog implies, I have been a bit distracted. As I mentioned in a previous entry, I have a bit of a crush on a guy. (Ok, so maybe it's a bit more than a crush.) And it seems that a lot of the routine hobbies, such as blogging have taken a back seat. I guess it's not such a bad thing. If I were to choose between blogging (or some of my other past-times) and love, I think I'd definitely choose love. I'm kind of a romantic fool anyway when it comes to matters of the heart.

Anyway, so I first started talking with this guy, chatting on yahoo messenger several months ago. And just last weekend we met for the first time. It was a good meeting, unlike my last experience. I believe I have a blog written here about how dumb and unsuccessful I thought internet dating was after having a first time meeting or date go sour.

Since last weekend went so positively, we continue to keep in touch by phone and internet and are making plans to meet again. I believe we are getting deeper and stronger in our feelings for each other and our conversations seem to be getting more and more serious. Sometimes I hang up the phone and am overwhelmed with my feelings for him and other times, I have to admit, I am overwhelmed with how serious we are getting. Finding a soul-mate is something I've always wanted. And he seems to be the closest thing I've found so far. But because I've thought I've been somewhat close before and had it all fall apart, I keep wondering what and when is something going to go wrong. I think both of us just need to relax somewhat and enjoy each other's company and the relationship and stop analyzing everything. (Even though I'm a pro at analyzing EVERYTHING).

2 Comments: Definitely just enjoy what you have right now. Don't worry about what will come of it. Cross that bridge when you get to it. (Celia)
Good luck! It's an amazing things. (OnMyWay)

A Surprise Christmas Gift

From 12/26/2007
I can't believe that Christmas is already over! I say that every year on December 26th, I know. With all of the activity and rush that occurs beforehand, time just always flies by. But there was something a bit different about this year's Christmas... a wonderfully pleasant surprise really. I made it through without having those depressing thoughts of how alone I am and how I have to celebrate solo even when surrounded by family and friends.

I seem to have had an increase of questions regarding my social and love life lately, almost as if it's a sign. For example my sister-in-law asked yesterday if I "had any prospects on the horizon". LOL What kind of question is that?! But I very slyly answered, "maybe" and because of all the conversation going on around us at the time, she was interrupted and unable to quiz me any further.

But there really IS something behind that "maybe", for I have been building on a relationship, ever so quietly. Over the past few weeks, it has really started to progress, sometimes a bit too fast, and sometimes it doesn't feel fast enough. Regardless, I'm enjoying every minute of it and it has made for a great Christmas gift! And if he's reading this blog, as sometimes he does, I just wanted to say thanks for giving me a Christmas where I finally didn't feel like I was celebrating alone.

Do I Need A Man?

From 8/15/2007
A fellow blogger friend posted this quiz on her blog and I decided to see what my results were. I kind of already knew this, but hey, it's always nice to have things confirmed by a very "scientific" quiz.

You Don't Need a Man, but You Want One!
You like having a guy in your life, and overall, you prefer not to be single.You won't go out with a guy out of desperation.. you rather be alone.However, when you're single, you do tend to obsess a little over dating.Because no matter how good your single life is, it's better with a great guy around.
　
Want to find out whether you need a man or not? Take the quiz for yourself!
http://www.blogthings.com/doyouneedamanquiz/

I Believe In Love

From 6/22/2007

I Believe In Love
I made a promise to myself;
Locked it away deep down inside.
Told my heart we'd wait it out;
Swore we'd never compromise.
Oh I'd rather be alone,
Like I am tonight.
Than settle for the kind of love
That fades before the morning light.
Silence stared me in the face
And I finally heard its voice.
It seemed to softly say
That in love you have a choice.
Today I got the answer
And there's a world of truth behind it.
Love is out there waiting somewhere;
You just have to go and find it.
I believe in love.
I believe in love.
A love that's real, love that's strong,
Love that lives on and on.
Yes, I believe in love.
by the Dixie Chicks
"Home" album

I purchased this Dixie Chicks CD today while browsing around at Wal-Mart. Some of the tracks I am very familiar with, since I am a fan of their music. But this one I hadn't ever heard. I loved the words, especially since it's a new mantra of mine to not be foolish about who I haphazardly fall in "love" (lust) with, but instead be patient and not settle. Great mushy love song!