Over The Hill Is Just Around The Corner

From January 2008
Ok, so I celebrated my 39th birthday yesterday. Isn't it true that 40 is considered over the hill?! Holy Cow I just can't believe I'm almost 40. And it's not even that I'm that distressed about it as I am amazed. I don't feel that old! I feel like I'm in my early 30's. I guess that really is a good thing... since they do say that you are only as old as you feel. So here's to one more year in my 30's -- may be it be an awesome one!!

Distractions of the Heart

From 1/19/2008
I haven't blogged in quite a while. I guess, as the title of this blog implies, I have been a bit distracted. As I mentioned in a previous entry, I have a bit of a crush on a guy. (Ok, so maybe it's a bit more than a crush.) And it seems that a lot of the routine hobbies, such as blogging have taken a back seat. I guess it's not such a bad thing. If I were to choose between blogging (or some of my other past-times) and love, I think I'd definitely choose love. I'm kind of a romantic fool anyway when it comes to matters of the heart.

Anyway, so I first started talking with this guy, chatting on yahoo messenger several months ago. And just last weekend we met for the first time. It was a good meeting, unlike my last experience. I believe I have a blog written here about how dumb and unsuccessful I thought internet dating was after having a first time meeting or date go sour.

Since last weekend went so positively, we continue to keep in touch by phone and internet and are making plans to meet again. I believe we are getting deeper and stronger in our feelings for each other and our conversations seem to be getting more and more serious. Sometimes I hang up the phone and am overwhelmed with my feelings for him and other times, I have to admit, I am overwhelmed with how serious we are getting. Finding a soul-mate is something I've always wanted. And he seems to be the closest thing I've found so far. But because I've thought I've been somewhat close before and had it all fall apart, I keep wondering what and when is something going to go wrong. I think both of us just need to relax somewhat and enjoy each other's company and the relationship and stop analyzing everything. (Even though I'm a pro at analyzing EVERYTHING).

2 Comments: Definitely just enjoy what you have right now. Don't worry about what will come of it. Cross that bridge when you get to it. (Celia)
Good luck! It's an amazing things. (OnMyWay)

Snow... and More Snow!

From January 2008
It started snowing this morning about the time I was getting ready for work. As I was leaving work around 5pm it looked like it had stopped for the first time since this morning. Of course, it was just a short break. It's still snowing as I write this, having stopped off and on over the past couple of hours.

It really is beautiful (We had some great big fluffy flakes fall today!), so I once again snapped a photo of my tree and shrubs in the front yard to show just how much we have piling up. I wouldn't mind staying home and being a couch potato tomorrow... calling it an official snow day. I may not be too far off, since I do work for a school and they do declare snow days every once in a while. However, even when the kids aren't required to come, we are if at all possible. How lame is that?!

Is It 2008 Already?! (Reviewing Last Year's Resolutions)

From January 2008
Last year, I so boldly wrote some resolutions/goals into my blog, which made them set in stone for the world to see. Of course I figured that if I did that, I might actually do better at achieving them. Hmmm... let's look at how I did.

1. The usual - lose weight. I seem to be on a bit of a trend of dropping a pound here or there... so now I want to make it official and shoot for a simple 5 pounds. That's it - that's all. I notice that I seem to get stuck on this one particular weight and when I lose anything, I tend to gain right back to that set weight. So, I want to lose 5 pounds, and make that my new set weight that my body tends to gravitate to.

So, how did I do? Well I have definitely maintained pretty well. But I don't think I lost much. Oh well...

2. Um - something to do with my finances. So exact and precise, I know. My goal at this time is to really get some of those smaller debts paid off, so that I have a little bit of cash left to spend on myself.

I have now paid off all of my hospital bills and I've almost paid off my washer and dryer. Yay!! Still have more to accomplish in this area, but I feel good about it.

3. Reconnect with some of my friends that I've noticed I've become distant with. Of course, I have one in particular in mind. It has brought such a sadness to my heart to think I've lost one of my good friends. So this goal is a bit vague... mostly it's just about me needing to take action... of some sort. Sigh.

I really tried to reconnect with her. Each time, I would just drop by to visit, and we'd have a good talk. We even went to the movies once. But she would never try to call me or initiate anything after that. How did we get to this point after being inseperable for several years? So... it's now been a long time since I've tried anything. And she still hasn't either. I miss her so much, but I almost feel it's time to move on. Who knows what this next year will bring.

4. It is time to do some dating again. It's kind of been a while. I took a purposeful break from it all, because clearly my dating preferences had become a bit skewed. I needed to step back and reevaluate what I was really wanting and looking for. I seem to have this pattern of either over-doing it or not doing it at all. It's either feast or famine.

Well... I really kind of continued the no dating, evaluating my preferences, kind of pattern for most of the year. I haven't dated that much at all. But I have still felt that it has been healthy for me. I just recently "met" someone and am enjoying where it is going so far. We'll see where it goes from here.

So... there ya have it. I don't think I did too poorly, considering that I kind of forgot about these goals after writing them! LOL

A Surprise Christmas Gift

From 12/26/2007
I can't believe that Christmas is already over! I say that every year on December 26th, I know. With all of the activity and rush that occurs beforehand, time just always flies by. But there was something a bit different about this year's Christmas... a wonderfully pleasant surprise really. I made it through without having those depressing thoughts of how alone I am and how I have to celebrate solo even when surrounded by family and friends.

I seem to have had an increase of questions regarding my social and love life lately, almost as if it's a sign. For example my sister-in-law asked yesterday if I "had any prospects on the horizon". LOL What kind of question is that?! But I very slyly answered, "maybe" and because of all the conversation going on around us at the time, she was interrupted and unable to quiz me any further.

But there really IS something behind that "maybe", for I have been building on a relationship, ever so quietly. Over the past few weeks, it has really started to progress, sometimes a bit too fast, and sometimes it doesn't feel fast enough. Regardless, I'm enjoying every minute of it and it has made for a great Christmas gift! And if he's reading this blog, as sometimes he does, I just wanted to say thanks for giving me a Christmas where I finally didn't feel like I was celebrating alone.

Dreaming of a White Christmas

From December 2007
I really only love snow at Christmastime and it has snowed off and on in the past 48 hours, increasing my Christmas Spirit. (Which I definitely need, since I can tend to be a scrouge sometimes.)

Anyway, I snapped this photo of the snow on the tree in my front yard yesterday. Makes me feel like I'm up in the mountains, snowed into a cabin. I wouldn't mind that at all, especially if I was with someone special and had no where to go.

Here's to a white Christmas! Merry Christmas everyone!!

O Christmas Tree

From December 2007

I finally got the tree up last week. I made myself do it, since I haven't really been as much in the festive mood this year. I think it worked. I enjoy it's lights every night and even added some to the windows.

I also just have to announce that today, I am officially done with my Christmas shopping! Yay!! I still need to actually make a few gifts, but no more crowds in the stores!

I Think My Subconscious Ordered This...

From 12/13/2007
I recently got online while at work and set out to purchase some children's books for the classrooms from Amazon.com. I found all of the books quickly and easily and made the purchase. I was quite excited to find some of these great books that I know the teachers will love. They arrived really quickly and as I opened up the first box, I noticed some thicker books. Immediately I was curious, since children's books are always quite thin. So as I stood in my office digging through the box, I pulled out one of thicker books. My first reaction when I saw what it was to quickly glance around the hall to see if anyone was looking! I had accidentally ordered 5 copies of some Women's Erotica!! Who knows how the hell they were ordered, but there they were sitting in this box amongst some very innocent children's stories. LOL I do wonder what the workers at Amazon thought as they packaged these up!

I have since boxed those 5 books back up and returned them. AND I've shared my story with those around the office who can appreciate the blunder. I do wonder however, if my subconsious is trying to tell me something!

1 Comment: Ha Ha! Well, did you really order them or did Amazon mistakenly place them in your order? Maybe it wasn't you at all. See? (Celia)

Yet Another Trip to Seattle

From December 2007
I just returned from another work trip to Seattle. We flew in Monday and got home late last night. Thankfully, we were able to avoid all of the flooding brought on by lots of rain in the area by flying. If we had driven, we would have either been unable to get through, or had to have taken a huge detour. One of the major freeways entering the Seattle area was completely flooded and still wasn't open when we left yesterday.

I traveled with 4 colleagues for a Head Start conference entitled I Am Moving, I Am Learning, which was focused on the epidemic of obesity that is plaguing our country, and starting at very young ages these days. And so, since I work for a preschool program for 3-5 year olds, I was able to get some really good ideas and techniques to bring back and teach my teachers about. But even better yet, it was a great conference for also getting me up and moving, as well as making better choices when eating. They kept us moving by dancing, hopping, skipping, jumping, etc. all throughout the seminar. Of course all of these were great activity ideas to use in the classroom. Then they fed us very healthy meals for breakfast and lunch. No soda and no sweets (except on the very last day we got a small portion of brownie ).

I really did feel great all week and I need to keep it up! However, I must admit that as we ate dinner in the airport last night, before catching our flight home, we all headed to Wendys! LOL After a while, ya just have to have some of that good ol' comfort food.

Surviving "The Feds"

From December 2007
Well, here I sit at the end of the week... the week of a Federal Review of the Head Start program that I work for. These reviews occur every 3 years and are usually quite stressful. However this time I went into it quite confident, and in the end our program did quite well. Most all of the findings were not related to the services we provide for the children (which I'm over). They were focused on duties that upper management and the board neglected to do. It was actually quite a positive experience, and I'm glad I can sit here and say I survived "the Feds!"

Immigration Politics

From 11/26/2007

I recently received the below message as a forward in an email. I have to say it kind of pissed me off. I know there is a lot of stuff going on in the world of immigration and everyone has their opinions about what the country should do, but I don't care at all for the politics that forget that these immigrants are actual humans trying to have a better life by living in our country. I believe that our country could improve their systems in how people are allowed in, but we don't have to be so unkind. We really do still have a long ways to go before we can say we aren't a prejudiced and biased country. I think we should look at our own country's history of slavery and segregation and realize how we almost "committed suicide" then as many supported white supremacy!

American Suicide..................Very sobering

We know Dick Lamm as the former Governor of Colorado . In that context his thoughts are particularly poignant. Last week there was an immigration overpopulation conference in Washington , DC , filled to capacity by many of America 's finest minds and leaders. A brilliant college professor by the name of Victor Hansen Davis talked about his latest book, "Mexifornia," explaining how immigration - both legal and illegal was destroying the entire state of California . He said it would march across the country until it destroyed all vestiges of The American Dream.

Moments later, former Colorado Governor Richard D. Lamm stood up and gave a stunning speech on how to destroy America. The audience sat spellbound as he described eight methods for the destruction of the United States . He said, "If you believe that America is too smug, too self-satisfied, too rich, then let's destroy America . It is not that hard to do. No nation in history has survived the ravages of time. Arnold Toynbee observed that all great civilizations rise and fall and that 'An autopsy of history would show that all great nations commit suicide.'"

"Here is how they do it," Lamm said:
"First, to destroy America , turn America into a bilingual or multi-lingual and bicultural country. History shows that no nation can survive the tension, conflict, and antagonism of two or more competing languages and cultures. It is a blessing for an individual to be bilingual; however, it is a curse for a society to be bilingual. The historical scholar, Seymour Lipset, put itis way: 'The histories of bilingual and bicultural societies that do not assimilate are histories of turmoil, tension, and tragedy.' Canada , Belgium , Malaysia , and Lebanon all face crises of national e xistence in which minorities press for autonomy, if not independence. Pakistan and Cyprus have divided. Nigeria suppressed an ethnic rebellion. France faces difficulties with Basques, Bretons, Corsicans and Muslims."

Lamm went on:
"Second, to destroy America , invent 'multiculturalism' and encourage immigrants to maintain their culture. Make it an article of belief that all cultures are equal; that there are no cultural differences. Make it an article of faith that the Black and Hispanic dropout rates are due solely to prejudice and discrimination by the majority. Every other explanation is out of bounds.

"Third, we could make the United States an 'Hispanic Quebec ' without much effort. The key is to celebrate diversity rather than unity. As Benjamin Schwarz said in the Atlantic Monthly recently: 'The apparent success of our own multi-ethnic and multicultural experiment might have been achieved not by tolerance but by hegemony. Without the dominance that once dictated ethnocentriy and what it meant to be an American, we are left with only tolerance and pluralism to hold us together.' Lamm said, "I would encourage all immigrants to keep their own language and culture I would replace the melting pot metaphor with the salad bowl metaphor. It is important to en sure that we have various cultural subgroups living in America enforcing their differences rather than as Americans, emphasizing their similarities."

"Fourth, I would make our fastest growing demographic group the least educated. I would add a second underclass, unassimilated, undereducated, and antagonistic to our population. I would have this second underclass have a 50% dropout rate from high school."

"My fifth point for destroying America would be to get big foundations and business to give these efforts lots of money. I would invest in ethnic identity, and I would establish the cult of 'Victimology.' I would get all minorities to think that their lack of success was the fault of the majority. I would start a grievance industry blaming all minority failure on the majority plation."

"My sixth plan for America 's downfall would include dual citizenship, and promote divided loyalties. I would celebrate diversity over unity. I would stress differences rather than similarities. Diverse people worldwide are mostly engaged in hating each other - that is, when they are not killing each other. A diverse, peaceful, or stable society is against most historical precet. People undervalue the unity it takes to keep a nation together. Look at the ancient Greeks. The Greeks believed that they belonged to the same race; they possessed a common language and literature; and they worshipped the same gods. All Greece took part in the Olympic games. A common enemy, Persia , threatened their liberty. Yet all these bonds were not strong enough to overcome two factors: local patriotism and geographical conditions that nurtured political divisions. Greece fell. "E. Pluribus Unum" -- From many, one. In that historical reality, if we put the emphasis on the 'pluribus' instead of the 'Unum,' we will “Balkanize” America as surely as Kosovo.’

"Next to last, I would place all subjects off limits. Make it taboo to talk about anything against the cult of 'diversity.' I would find a word similar to 'heretic' in the 16th century - that stopped discussion and paralyzed thinking. Words like 'racist' or 'xenophobe' halt discussion and debate. Having made America a bilingual/bicultural country, having established multi-cultum, having the large foundations fund the doctrine of 'Victimology,' I would next make it impossible to enforce our immigration laws. I would develop a mantra: That because immigration has been good for America , it must always be good. I would make every individual immigrant symmetric and ignore the cumulative impact of millions of them."
In the last minute of his speech, Governor Lamm wiped his brow. Profound silence followed.

Finally he said, "Lastly, I would censor Victor Hanson Davis's book 'Mexifornia.' His book is dangerous. It exposes the plan to destroy America . If you feel America deserves to be destroyed, don't read that book."

There was no applause. A chilling fear quietly rose like an ominous cloud above every attendee at the conference. Every American in that room knew that everything Lamm enumerated was proceeding methodically, quietly, darkly, yet pervasively across the United States today. Discussion is being suppressed. Over 100 languages are ripping the foundation of our educational system and national cohesiveness. Even barbaric cultures that practice female genital mutilation are growing as we celebrate 'diversity.' American jobs are vanishing into the Third World as corporations create a Third World in America Take note of California and other states. To date, ten million illegal aliens and growing fast. It is reminiscent of George Orwell's book "1984." In that story, three slogans are engrd in the Ministry of Truth building: "War is peace," "Freedom is slavery," and "Ignorance is strength."

Governor Lamm walked back to his seat. It dawned on everyone at the conference that our nation and the future of this great democracy is deeply in trouble and worsening fast. If we don't get this immigration monster stopped within three years, it will rage like a California wildfire and destroy everything in its path, especially The American Dream.
　

My First Hockey Game

From November 2007
I went to my first ever hockey game last night. A friend called out of the blue to inform me that they had an extra ticket for the Steelheads and of course I took the offer. I had a blast! I really do enjoy pretty much all sports when I can go and see them live and in person. I think I just really like the atmosphere, the cheering, the food, and the music. I can't say that I was immediately hooked to hockey in particular, but I could definitely go again just for all of that atmosphere (and amazingly it wasn't as aggressive as I always picture hockey to be -- I was almost disappointed!). Plus, “we” won!

Thanksgiving Gratitude

From November 22 2007
Happy Thanksgiving!!

It's 9:00 am on a cold Thanksgiving morning, and I'm sitting here drinking some hot chocolate and checking some email, typing blog entries, and chatting with a newly found internet acquaintance. It's not a bad morning really. Soon though I'll have to jump in the shower and get ready for the day's festivities - I'm tagging along with my brother and sister-in-law and their family to her aunt's house. Our family tradition for thanksgiving has changed and in some ways it's nice to have change, but in other ways I miss what we used to do.

Thanksgiving seems to be becoming one of those lost holidays anymore. Christmas usually starts way too early for me, and the focus is more on the shopping opportunities during this weekend rather than a spirit of gratitude. But maybe once I've experienced the day, it will be just as rewarding as this morning had been -- peaceful! Which is always something to be grateful for!!

And on this cold but relaxing Thanksgiving morning, I noticed I had yet another really insightful horoscope for the day. I quite often fight the inner battle of what is the "right" thing to do versus what I really want to do. Why can't they be one in the same? And sometimes I think I do confuse what's "right" with what feels safe instead of venturing out there. Hmmm. I'll have to think on that some more.

Aquarius: January 20 - February 18
It's time that you give yourself what you need, dear Aquarius. Your desires don't always go in the direction that does you the most good, and this can cause some tension. You often feel as though it is impossible to combine your desires with what is good for you, notably in your love life. You wrestle with whether you should remain in your "creative" cave or share your life with someone. Does it really have to be one or the other?

A Working Weekend and a Migraine Headache

From November 2007
This weekend was our annual Policy Council Retreat, which is when we take newly elected members of one of our governing bodies and train them. We usually take everyone out of town for an overnight stay and spend the day Saturday giving them lots of information on our program. But this particular year, I really felt it was a non-productive and useless event. It's so sad really... there was a lot of waste. Waste in time (we sat around as staff, waiting a lot), and waste of money (food and rooms were reserved, and people didn't show and we had to pay for it anyway). We really do need to change how we do it. Change would definitely be a good thing in this case.

And on top of all of this, I've had a rebounding migraine headache for the past 3 or 4 days (who's counting anymore?). I think it's a stress headache, but I'm also not sure that it might be a bit of a flu bug. So, I'm living on Ibuprofin and Excedrin Migraine pills, and I've got one more week until our big Federal Review. Sigh...

Life Goes On...

From November 2007
As usual, life has been busy. And it just occurred to me that I hadn't blogged in quite a while. I should have lots to write (or vent) about will all my busy-ness, but I think by the time I get home from work and do a few things around the house, I'm brain dead and have shut down mentally.

November is quickly passing, and with it comes a Federal Review at work -- the week after Thanksgiving Break. Federal Review is similar to an audit, except that it extends to all parts of our grant-funded preschool program, not just the fiscal part. We have one every three years, and so in the many years I've worked here, I've gone through about six. They are always stressful and taxing. But having it in November is pretty early in the school year and I'm glad that it will be over soon. However, until then, I feel like I'm on fast-forward and just can't seem to get enough done each day. I think pretty much everyone in my life thinks I've dropped off the face of the earth.

Sigh... life does go on though and soon I'll be back to my still busy, but less stressful pace.

Understanding Another's Self Esteem

From 11/8/2007
Yesterday, I spent the day observing and then talking with a teacher. I have been spending quite a bit of my work days lately completing my regular fall observations on all of the preschool teachers that I mentor and she was my scheduled visit for the day. This particular teacher has a lot of wonderful abilities and works quite well with children. So I wasn't too worried about how her observation would go. However, she does have a very active and energetic class this year, with a few children exhibiting some difficult behaviors. But she really did handle it well.

Yet, one thing I've noticed about her over the past couple of years, is that she is continually making sarcastic comments about how she'll probably get fired soon, or maybe she should just quit while she's ahead... etc. As yesterday progressed, I heard quite a few of these comments. And even though she is actually quite funny when she's being sarcastic or cynical, it can start to be concerning too. So, when I met with her to review her observation, I decided to talk to her about her strengths and her level of confidence. I asked her to name one thing that she knows she's good at (at work). She took quite a long time and then finally said "Others have told me that I communicate well with the children." I told her that I totally agreed and that I think she's one of the best we have in that respect. However, I wanted to know what she felt about it, not so much what she's heard others say. She couldn't come up with anything. I felt quite sad for her.

I'm really quite confident in most everything I do and so it's a bit hard for me to comprehend not being able to find anything that I truly know I do well. I challenged her to start identifying on a daily basis things that she does well or things that went well that day and to start pushing the negative thoughts away. She said she'd work on it, but that it's the way she's always been. I'm going to start asking her about her strengths more regularly now. This was a good learning experience for me too... I need to focus on people's strengths more too, instead of what they're doing wrong.

BOO!!

From 10/27/2007
Halloween is my favorite holiday. I just love it!! It's autumn, it's spooky, it revolves around candy, and you get to be someone else! So, I took a couple of quizzes.

What Kind of Monster Are You?
(I loved the results!!)
You Are A Vampire
You have a real thirst for bliss, and you consider yourself a true hedonist.

And you're not afraid to walk alone in life, if it means getting what you truly crave.

You truly enjoy entrancing people.

Not to mention the ensuing pleasures of the flesh.

Your tastes have been called decadent and bizarre.

You usually give in to your temptations, no matter how primal.

Your greatest power: Your flawless ability to seduce and charm

Your greatest weakness: Human flesh

You play well with: Werewolves
http://www.blogthings.com/whatkindofmonsterareyouquiz/

What's Your Halloween Personality?
(The results were somewhat true, but not right on.)
What Your Halloween Habits Say About You
You love the drama of Halloween.

You definitely like to have the best costume around - and everyone noticing you.

You definitely think of yourself as someone who has a dark side.

And part of having that dark side means not showing it.

Your inner child is stubborn and a bit bossy.You truly fear the dark side of humanity.

You are a true misanthrope.

You're prone to be quite emotional and over dramatic.

Deep down, you enjoy being scared out of your mind... even if you don't admit it.

You are a traditionalist with most aspects of your life.

You like your Halloween costume to be basic, well made,

and conventional enough to wear another year.
http://www.blogthings.com/whatsyourhalloweenpersonalityquiz/

In Love With Me!

From 10/24/2007
My whole life, I haven't ever really thought of myself as "cute" or "gorgeous" or "pretty". I'm not sure what sparked this self-image... although as I hit middle school I certainly went through the awkward stage, not knowing quite how to handle all the changes occuring in my body. I had acne, I became extra chubby, and my hair seemed to always be greasy by the end of the day. Then when I would look at some of my friends, whose skin was clear, body shapes filling in nicely, great clothes, and cute hair, all I could do was compare. All young girls do this. It's just sad how those thoughts and images in our minds stick with us for so long. My weight has always been something that affected my self-esteem.

But over the past decade (my 30's), I've noticed that I'm finally getting past those negative thoughts about my looks and appearance. Yes, I'm quite aware that I'm not skinny and modelesque... but I AM beautiful! And it's great to hear others (men) say it too. A couple of weekends ago, I went with a friend to take some pictures. She took quite a few of me, and I really like how they turned out.

Is this me being vain? I really don't think so. This is me, with a healthy self-image!!

More Beautiful Autumn Photos

From October 2007

It's taken me all week, but I'm finally getting back to my blog.

Last Saturday I went with a friend back to the same park that my niece was married at to take some scenic fall photos. It was a beautiful day!! It was great to be outside, and I loved just taking my time, snapping photos here and there. Plus, since I've been so stressed at work, it was good therapy to do something creative. I have to have my creative time on a regular basis!

My friend, who is a much better photographer than I am, also took some pictures. We took quite a few of me in all of the fall colored foliage. I haven't seen them yet, but she promises a disc full. I guess it's a good thing I like my photo taken!

Another Crazy Work Day!

From October 2007
If the calendar didn't say differently, I'd swear today was Friday the 13th. It was just one thing after another going wrong. Maybe it's a full moon or something. Whatever it was, things were crazy today!! By 4:30 this afternoon, I was completely brain dead and exhausted.

So what caused all of this exhaustion? We had a teacher assistant quit after refusing to do some of the basic duties of her job. Another new hire didn't show up, causing us to worry about her, since the last time she was seen this morning she had told people that she was headed to work (she had become violently ill, unable to call or answer her phone). One of our cooks collapsed or fell in her kitchen due to some back problems she's been having and had to be rushed to the emergency room. We made a decision to let another employee go as well as put an additional one on a performance improvement plan based on performance so far. And to top it off I kept having difficulties with my computer (which wasn't that bad, but annoying on top of everything else.)

For dinner tonight I ate cookies and milk. Do you blame me?!

I Love Autumn!

From October 2007
My favorite time of year is finally here again!! Wonderful Autumn!

Yesterday, I attended a wedding of one of my nieces. She held it at a park where the colors of the trees, still blooming flowers, grasses, and pond full of ducks and geese were absolutely breathtaking. It was a bit breezy making it chilly, but otherwise it was a perfect day for a wedding. I took just a few snapshots of the surroundings (see photo above). I want to go back for more...soon...before the colors fade!

Happy Fall Everyone!!

A Venting Session

From 10/9/2007
Holy Crap! It's been a whole month since I added something to this blog. I have been trying to differentiate this blog from my other one on Yahoo. This one being saved more for some of my thoughts on how I could make life better, experiences that affect the way I interact with others, "a-ha" moments, belief systems I have, or different philosophies I'm adopting in life. I guess I just haven't had any significant thoughts or events to spark a blog entry. (I need to start reading The Secret again -- could use some positive thoughts.)

But today, I think it might feel good to just spend some time venting about my hectic, crazy work life. It's pretty typical to feel crazed and overwhelmed this time of year. It's just the nature of my job. But geez, I'm a bit fed up lately! I think it's because my two bosses are pretty much incompetent. And since I'm third in command, guess what I get to do? A lot of their jobs plus my own. It's nuts!! We have a federal review on our program in December (these reviews come around every three years--based on our grant funding). I think our management system is at it's worst right now. I so badly just want all of it to be "found out". I'm tired of working so hard to make up the difference... I'm ready to let "the chips fall where they may" and it be made known to our federal monitors that our director and her second in command can't do their jobs! Sigh... I'll just have to wait and see I guess. I do have the philosophy that "everything comes out in the wash eventually." You just have to have the patience to wait it out. Dishonesty on the level that they exhibit it can't be hidden forever.

A Trip to Charleston, South Carolina

From September 2007
I just returned late last Thursday night from a work trip to Charleston. A co-worker/friend and I left last Sunday morning very early. We arranged to go a day earlier than needed so that we could spend the day Monday site-seeing. It was great! Although it was quite HOT there -- and extremely humid! When we left Sunday morning it was rainy and about 50 degrees here. When we arrived in South Carolina, it was in the mid 80's with about 70% humidity. So it was quite a change and since I hate humidity (having been raised in the dry west), it was not fun to get used to.

Charleston is a very historic city. I knew that before going, but it was great to see all the historic homes and places. We took about a 3-hour walking tour that pretty much covered all of the downtown area. The tour focused on the historic homes and mansions, which were beautiful. I took lots of pictures that I will soon get posted onto the site.

We didn't get the chance to tour Ft Sumter, although it could be seen from the shoreline. However, we did get a chance to ride a small boat taxi across one of the rivers, just to experience the water and get to see a better view of Charleston from a distance. While on the water, we got a quick glimpse of a dolphin... too bad I wasn't a bit quicker with my camera!
As much as I loved my get-a-way, I'm also happy to be back to enjoy beautiful autumn! I absolutely love this time of year, including the cool, cool, weather!!

The two-day conference we attended was great also... I was able to gain a lot of information to bring back to our program that will hopefully prepare us for our upcoming Federal Program Review this year. (More to stress about!)

I Survived!

From September 2007
The month has almost passed and I SURVIVED another year of startup and pre-service training at the preschool program that I work at. As usual this year's training schedule was hectic and crazy. All the new employees (as well as returning staff) sat through several days of mass amounts of information being flung at them and as usual they ended the day each day with a sort of "deer in the headlights" expression on their face. Poor poor people. I felt that way and I've worked there for over 15 years. I also gave a good portion of the training... so what does that say for my skills? LOL

Anyway, I'm glad it's over. The children start next Tuesday and then we will really be running in full swing. Fortunately, this year I get to miss the first day of school because I will be at a seminar in Charleston SC! I'm so excited!! It will make for a great get-a-way as well as give me a refresher on how to monitor the classrooms and teaching staff. I'll write all about it when I return.

A Shopping List

From 9/9/2007
I really enjoyed this article--containing a great list of what to look for in finding men who are healthy in all aspects. It's definitely something I needed to read and something I need to be aware of in my relationships. (I seem to so easily get involved with "Mr. Wrongs" or in disfuncitonal relationships.)

How to Spot a Great Guy - The 10 essential things to look for
by Dr. Bethany Marshall (from an article on ivillage.com)

We all want to find a great guy. But let's face it—how many of your exes seemed fantastic at first, only for you to find out later they were Mr. Wrongs? Well, no more bad boys, mama's boys, or anything of the sort! Dr. Bethany Marshall shares her shopping list for a healthy man in this excerpt from her book, Deal Breakers.

When you first meet a man, whether it's online, at the grocery store, at a bar, at school, or at your job, you should feel that he wants you.It may be conveyed by a look, a touch, a compliment, curiosity, or attention to detail. And it must, within a short amount of time, be conveyed in person-not online, through a text message, or on the phone. And definitely, it should be backed up by his willingness to make a plan and move the relationship forward. If he's not interested enough to call in advance and make a plan, he's not interested enough to invest his emotions in a relationship. Conversely, constant calling, e-mailing, and text-messaging is not true contact. He cannot touch you, see you, adore you, or get to know you through words on a screen or over the phone.

Soon after meeting him, you should discover that he has appropriately achieved in at least one area of his life.For instance, if he went to college he now has a good job. Or a decent car. If he inherited his parents' business, he has learned how to successfully manage it. Or if he is a member of a baseball team, he has learned to become a team player. His efforts continue to generate new opportunities, new skills, new challenges, or new possessions. Thus, he is progressing and not degenerating.

If he's a healthy man, he will never make plans for the future that he does not intend to back up.And he will certainly not say, “I'm not sure where this relationship is going,” and then continue to call you... He will not send messages that are confusing and difficult to decipher. A healthy man says what he means and means what he says. And the words that he speaks are backed up by action that coincides. Even if he cannot give a guarantee, the relationship is always moving forward. Thus, you will never find yourself drunk-dialing at two in the morning because you fear that he is out with another girl. Or find yourself in a situation where he claims to want to get married , but you are the only one who is planning the wedding and paying for the caterer.

If you are in the right relationship, it will feel reciprocal and mutual.When you offer emotional support, is he appreciative? Does he give back by surprising you with a special little something? Or remembering your favorite drink? Do you feel that what he gives is as valuable and meaningful as what you offer? For instance, if you set aside a Saturday night, will he make an entertainment plan that is enjoyable for both of you? If your car breaks down, will he come and get you? If you have a problem, will he help you? Is he as devoted to you as you are to him? Healthy relationships are based upon mutual give-and-take. And what is given and received should feel of equal value. If the only thing that you are getting out of this relationship is text messages or e-mails, occasional plans, or the assurance that you won't be
alone on a Saturday night, you are not getting what you need.

If he's the right guy for you, he will have good friends and you will like who he is when he's with them.Whether he's at the bar, at a tailgate party, or running for political office, you are confident that he is the man you know and love, both with you or apart from you. When he's out of sight, he does not turn into somebody else. For instance, a player. Or a jerk. Conversely, when you include him with your friends, you know who he will be-charming and engaging, enhancing instead of detracting.

If he's a healthy man, he will like you for who you are.Even if you have a bad day or say something that he does not like, his adoration will remain steady and his view of you will remain the same. Beware of the guy whose perception changes whenever you deviate from his expectations. For instance, you dress a certain way and he refuses to hold you or compliment you. Or you gain weight and he stops having sex with you. Does he take pleasure in you, whether you look sexy in your low-rider jeans or have just gotten out of
bed? Does he spend time with your family because he knows that you are a part of them? Is he interested in your spirituality? Or do you feel that you must suppress your personality in order to hold on to his approval? Even when it comes to your sexual preferences, you should feel free to reveal yourself without fear of losing his affection.

A healthy man will never view you as unconditionally bad or make you feel terrible about yourself.Even in the midst of an argument, he will be able to see both the good and the bad in you. For instance, he will not stay mad at you once the argument is over. And he will move on instead of clinging to bad feelings or suspicions. He loves you and sees you as a good person, no matter what. And he would never refuse to call, refuse to be nice, or walk out the door without quickly returning-simply because you shared your concerns with him.

A healthy man has a learning curve.For instance, if you tell him that you need more time together or need him to stop doing something that is obnoxious, he will shift his behavior because he loves you and does not want to lose you. He is willing to learn from his mistakes and modify his actions. For instance, if he begins a friendship with a flirtatious girl and you let him know that this is creating a problem, he will be concerned about your feelings and come up with a solution. When you discuss relationship obstacles, he works on them. He would never admit to a substance abuse problem and then refuse to address it. Or agree to appropriately separate from his mother (who dislikes you) but then go running back to the nest.

If he is healthy, he will seek his own solutions.For instance, if he has a problem he will reach out to others for help, find resources, have a conversation, go to therapy, attend a twelve-step program-anything that will move him closer to making the changes that he needs to make. (You could do worse than give him this book. No, wait-make him buy his own damn copy!) Petty pride, laziness, or stubbornness will not keep him from taking the steps that he needs to take to have a full relationship with you.

A healthy man will not try to have power over you.He won't leave you wondering where he is and what he is doing. Or leave you hanging just to prove a point. Or make you feel that you have to disappear for a few days to recover the power you once had. Even if he has more money, status, and power, he will not make you feel that you would be nothing without him. A healthy man is willing to take you into account instead of pushing you away. He is willing to listen, meet your needs, and include you in mutual decision making. Because you matter, he does not want to have undue influence or control over you. And he can trust that he is loved, even when he is not in charge. When it comes to who takes care of whom, and who makes the decisions, and who gets the last say, he is willing to negotiate (because really, all of life is a little like Let's Make a Deal).

September 11th

Septemeber 11, 2007
Today marks the six year anniversary of the tragic 9/11 events in 2001. I've pondered on it quite a bit today -- this morning when I woke up and then throughout the day at work. This evening I've been watching today's Oprah episode that I recorded, which is a tribute to all of the children who were left behind by a parent who died.

I often think back to what I was doing September 11, 2001 when I first learned of what had been going on. I believe I had heard briefly about the initial events/crash of the first plane while still at home getting ready for work. But what I remember more vividly, is arriving to work and staff having turned on a tv to watch the news. I can remember the focus on the twin towers and the confusion about how a plane could have "accidentally" crashed into one of them. And then as time passed and the additional crashes took place, how scary it was to realize our country was under attack. It was so hard to believe. And it was hard to pull myself away from the tv and do my work. Quite a few of us kept returning to see what the updates were.

I admire the families of those who lost loved ones that worked in those buildings or were on the plane. I think it's much harder to lose someone from such a sudden, tragic event than through other natural causes. But I admire even more, those firemen, policemen, paramedics, and other service workers who put their lives in danger to help others. They knew they were walking or running into a dangerous situation and still bravely did their job. I'm not sure I could have done the same.

My parents used to talk about their memories of Pearl Harbor and what they were doing when they first heard of the attack on our country then. I used to think that our country was invincible to attacks like that ever happening again. But sadly now, I have a memory of my own to relive.

It's That Time...

From September 2007
With September comes stress and I am certainly feeling it today as I sit on my sofa trying to relax from the day's events.

On Monday we start our pre-service training for all staff before children start classes. During the 5 days of training that are spread out over the next two weeks, I am the trainer of the teachers for a large amount of it. I don't mind training at all, however I haven't done much prep for it yet. Yikes!

Plus today, one of our teachers gave her notice that she was quitting. We've already struggled to fill several teaching positions for this school year, and FINALLY hired them all two weeks ago. Why did she have to wait till September to tell us?!

I'm also responsible for the purchasing of classroom supplies, toys, equipment, etc. So right now I'm knee deep in purchasing and receiving of boxes and boxes of supplies. Tomorrow I have a mound of them to open and put away. Sigh...

So... there is all of my whining for the day. And I'll end my entry now before I start up again.

A Weekend of Friends

From 9/4/2007
I had a great Labor Day weekend!! Why? It consisted of the ultimate "get-a-way" for me emotionally, socially, physically, and mentally. To start off, my boss granted us an extra day off on Friday, making it a 4-day weekend instead of 3. And then to top it off, I got to spend a majority of that time with my greatest friends. I consider myself quite lucky to have 5 great friends... all from different stages/ages in my life, who have turned into life-long kindred spirits of my life. This weekend, I was able to spend time with 4 of them!!

On Friday, not only did I spend a couple of hours with my mom, but I also got to spend some time with my bosom buddy and adopted sister who I met at work approx. 10 years ago and soon became great friends with. She no longer works with me and we've had some struggles over the past year, but she is a true kindred spirit and therefore will always be dear to me. We went to lunch and then to a movie, which is great considering how little we've done together lately. I was very excited to spend this, now rare, time together!

Later that afternoon, another dear friend called to tell me about a visit to my little corner of the world to see family and wanted to know if I had time for a short visit. Of course I did! We had a great time catching up.

On Saturday and some of Sunday, I spent some time with my ever stable and ever "there for me" pal. We drove to a flea market and spent most of Saturday walking around looking at everyone's stuff for sale. Then on Sunday, I joined her at a family BBQ held at her sisters. I've known this friend since the early 90's where I met her at church. We have some similarities (like being single) and many differences, both of which keeps the friendship strong.

On Sunday, I also started up a great text message conversation with a friend who doesn't live near me. We continued this conversation with some chatting online on Monday. He and I have been friends since my early twenties and there just seems to be a certain connection there that I can't explain. We haven't lived near each other for many years, but we seem to keep up the friendship somehow.

What a great way to spend a long weekend. I love my friends! They are awesome!!

Journal/Scrapbooking Group (8) - Childhood Memories

From August 2007
In April, my journal group was assigned the topic of Childhood memories to write about. This was a very easy topic for me, since I have some great ones. The picture above is of my page with lots of photos of me and my family and friends. And below is the journaling I added in a little booklet.

The memories of my childhood are vast and plentiful. They are also almost always happy ones. How could they not be? I was the spoiled baby sister in a large family of mostly boys.

Because I was so much younger than the rest of my siblings, I often played alone. One of my favorite ways to spend time included playing house, especially with my set of Fisher Price people and furniture. When I yearned for the company of a play companion, I turned to my friends. I developed a feeling for the nature of friendship early on. My first memory of close friendship was at three and I continued this friendship clear into the sixth grade.

There were also plenty of times that I watched or played alongside my big brothers. They were into football, wrestling, basketball, and many of the typical guy things. Once in a while Id be privileged enough to be included in their games. I became the wrestling partner that could always be beat and the tag along that never could quite get the hang of basketball. But with their help, I was actually able to figure out the odd rules to chess and become a pretty decent softball player.

I grew up on a dairy farm and therefore some of my memories revolve around many of the chores I was assigned. These included feeding the calves, taking care of my rabbits, and mowing the lawn (which and I hated and still do to this day). I had a fondness for animals, especially the babies: chicks, bunnies, kittens, puppies, calves, etc. Good thing I lived on a farm, for we had them all.

My mom was always very supportive of me discovering and building my talents. For almost eight years I took piano lessons. Towards the end, I had become quite accomplished in my skills and the pride of Mrs. Hansen, my piano teacher. Once I reached Junior High, I traded in the piano for a flute. I also showed an interest in drawing and creating crafts. Of course many of my early drawings look like any other childs interpretations. But as I grew older, I began to take art more seriously, especially as I noticed I had a bit of a flair for it.

I can't say that I long to relive my childhood, but I certainly do love to remember it. I had loving, caring parents, great siblings, and awesome friendships. And even though my family may not have had all the conveniences or an excess of money, I rarely noticed. My childhood was, and I'm sure my life will continue to be, made of great memories!

A Family Reunion on the Farm

From August 2007
I come from a pretty large family (I'm the youngest of seven children) and half of us live around this general area. But the rest of my siblings are spread out across the country and even into Germany. So whenever one of the "far-away" ones comes home to visit my mom, the rest of us gather up, prepare some food, and sit around and gab, while the nieces and nephews play (although they are growing up so much that "play" isn't always the right description).

That's how this past weekend went. One of my brothers and family traveled from Virginia to visit my mom on the family farm. My mother has been talking about selling the farm and moving into something smaller and more appropriate for her age and abilities and my brother wanted to make sure that his kids got to spend some time exploring and creating memories.

There are usually some interesting moments when family gathers together, and I usually have some sort of cynical or sarcastic comment to make about it. But really, this weekend went quite smoothly.

Sunday was our largest gathering -- only two of my siblings and their families were absent. My mom had requested that we prepare a short biography of the highlights of our lives that we could share with each other. Of course we all moaned and groaned about it. And I don't think many of us actually wrote anything down, but once we started sharing memories of our childhood and experiences growing up, it was hard to shut us up. I even learned a few things about my older brothers (and how mischevious they were)!

Some other highlights of the weekend were: going to the cemetary where my dad was buried, taking group photos, going to the local reservoir where we used to go as a family to waterski, etc, bowling (I beat 3 of my brother's scores!), and avoiding my mom's cooking (she's never really been the best cook - lol).

My 3-day weekend was packed, but I really had a great time, and when I returned to work on Tuesday I realized I hadn't thought about work all weekend! Now that's a rarity!! And boy was it refreshing.

This photo above is of the small country town I grew up in. I took the photo from the cemetary up on the hill, where my dad is buried.

Do I Need A Man?

From 8/15/2007
A fellow blogger friend posted this quiz on her blog and I decided to see what my results were. I kind of already knew this, but hey, it's always nice to have things confirmed by a very "scientific" quiz.

You Don't Need a Man, but You Want One!
You like having a guy in your life, and overall, you prefer not to be single.You won't go out with a guy out of desperation.. you rather be alone.However, when you're single, you do tend to obsess a little over dating.Because no matter how good your single life is, it's better with a great guy around.
　
Want to find out whether you need a man or not? Take the quiz for yourself!
http://www.blogthings.com/doyouneedamanquiz/

The Neglectful Blogger

From August 2007
August is really flying by... and what's worse? I haven't blogged in two weeks! (I know... it's really not the biggest tragedy ) And even now I really don't have anything to say. I'm sure there are little tidbits about work, family, friends, or my emotional instabilities that I could write about, but really it all seems blah-zay .

I have a family get-together coming up this weekend, which I'm sure will provide all kinds of material for me to write about and analyze. So till then... happy blogging! (To those of you out there who aren't quite so neglectful.)

A Week At The County Fair

From August 2007
With the onset of August comes the annual county fair that is held just down the street from where I live. So, just as I did last year, I purchased a week's pass, and each evening I walked over with one of my friends. I mostly go to see people (that I probably haven't seen since last year at the fair) and then to grab some greasy but yummy fair food. I'm not so sure why it is that food always tastes better when cooked outside, but it really does. And I am a huge fan of scones (or elephant ears), which you can buy there for $2. One usually fills me up and I consider it a pretty affordable, yummy, dinner.

This year, I have to admit that the fair really didn't keep my attention or entertain me as much as last year. Going every night may have just been over-kill, although I did that last year too. Maybe it's because I wasn't as entertained by the same hypnotist and I didn't enter anything to be judged.

Regardless, it was all much better than sitting at home!

A Girls Night Out

From 8/5/2007
Last weekend, I attended my 20 year class reunion. I had such a great time and in the process got back in touch with two of my friends from Junior High and High School. So, we decided to not let another 10 years go by before getting together again and planned a girls night out. Last night I traveled to where they live (an hour away) and we went to dinner and then out to some clubs. I had a good time and it felt good to just get out. I have to admit that there were some awkward silent moments--most likely because we don't know each other as well as we used to. But it was still fun.

One of these friends is quite gorgeous. She always has been, but has aged very well. She's happily married, and so wasn't really "shopping" in the meat markets (otherwise known as clubs). But I got to see how crazy some drunk guys can really get when they are smitten by a beautiful woman. I know that sounds like I'm saying that I don't think I'm beautiful, which is not true. I do think I have some appeal and beauty. However, this friend is practically perfect.

ANYWAY, I was reassured last night that my previous belief is correct -- that clubs or bars are not the place to meet guys. Even though I saw some good looking men, most of them were pretty primal and animal like, once drunk.

Our little get-together was a good change for me. Prior to my Reunion, I'd been kind of recluse and it has been nice over the past few weeks to be out in happy, energetic, extroverted environments. I probably really need it, considering that really soon I'll be smack dab in the middle of the busiest time of my work year.

Some Good Advice! (And Perfect For My Mood)

From 7/29/2007
Aquarius: January 20 - February 18
Let your love light shine today, dear Aquarius. There is a great deal of passion in your heart that needs to be expressed. Let your romantic nature take the reins, and allow your creative nature to blossom. Be assertive with regard to the ones you love. Muster up your courage and feel free to take the lead. Be loving and caring without being smothering and clingy. Give others room to breath!

I do actually feel this way quite a bit! And yes, I always have to be careful to not be too clingy once I start to share all that love and passion!! It's just sooo easy to go overboard, because I've usually been holding it all in for quite some time. It's kind of like how some are with anger.

Class Reunion - Day 2

From July 2007
Yesterday, I participated in the second half of my class reunion. It was just as fun as the first! Some of my classmate's memories are amazing! The first night we were together one of my male classmates reminded me that I was his first kiss (in like the first or second grade). I didn't remember and really still don't. But what was funny about it, is that I in turn told him that I had a crush on him off and on throughout elementary school. We had a good laugh about it and continued to joke throughout the reunion.

We really didn't have a huge turnout. Probably a bit more than a third of our class, and since we were a small class to start with... that doesn't make many. However, I always like small intimate groups in just about any situation.

Our picnic and tour of the school grounds yesterday afternoon were fun. Some of those buildings I hadn't been in for a very long time. Lots of memories come rushing back... great memories!

We finalized the reunion with a dinner last night. I have to admit I was a bit worn out, but still having fun. I could tell though that I had run out of things to say to some people. In many other ways, it was kind of sad to see it end. Some of the guys were getting together today to play golf. I think we girls should have planned something too!

Class Reunion - Day 1

From July 2007
My 20 year class reunion has finally arrived, and tonight we had our first gathering. It was so great!! I thought the 10 year one was fun, but I really had a blast tonight. It didn't feel intimidating or scary, but was completely open and light-hearted for me. In fact, (and this WAS true for the 10 year reunion too) I'm amazed at how everyone has matured and are so nice.

What I enjoyed most about tonight though was sitting with two of my past girlfriends on each side of me. One of them was my best friend in junior high and the other (whom I was also good friends with then) became a best friend by the time we were in high school. The three of us reminisced about slumber parties, crushes, etc. And the funny thing is -- we all live relatively close to each other -- like within an hours drive. I'm not sure why we haven't kept in touch, but I do have a bit more of a resolve to do so this time. We all said we would 10 years ago, but didn't do so well. This time I really want to! AND both of these friends look so great! I think we tend to look better at this age ... I know that I do.

Tomorrow we have two other meetings/activities. At noon we are meeting for a picnic on the school grounds (kids and families invited) and then tomorrow evening we'll be having a dinner together. I'm looking forward to it!

1 Comment: How fun Buffy! :o) I have never gone to a reunion. I've never been notified of one. Maybe they forgot me? Glad you had a wonderful time. (Celia)

Good Conversation with Good Friends

From July 2007
Nothing beats the blues like having some good conversations with good friends. I've had the chance in the last two days to converse with three different good friends. One of these friends is someone I talk to all the time about everything, one is a friend that I have a good chat with several times a year, and the third is someone I haven't conversed with in a very long time and out of the blue we had a great chat. All of these have been of great value to me and have blessed me greatly! Thanks guys!!

1 Comment: It is great, isn't it? I haven't been much of a talker since I quit smoking. I used to smoke and talk on the phone. Now it's doesn't sound so great. (Celia)

Emotions Gone Amuck... AGAIN!

From July 2007
I'm really just not sure what is wrong with me this summer, but I seem to be hitting the same emotional brick wall over and over again... and dangit, it hurts! I am NOT a cryer, yet lately every little thing sets me off (mostly my own thoughts). I don't like not being in control of these things at all.

Some of it, I'm sure is my latest inability to cope very well with loneliness. As I get older, being single has shown its benefits often. But at the same time, I also realize how the clock is ticking and sometimes a deep feeling of loneliness hits. Usually, it lasts a day and I'm over it, back to my mostly content single life. NOT lately. I almost fear this is something I'm going through to prepare me for something else... just a gut feeling I'm having. It's not a feeling I'm liking too much. SIGH... What's this single girl to do?!

What Color Is Your Kiss?

From July 2007
Alright, I know that this little quiz might be a bit juvenile, but we all have to revert to our teenager selves every so often. So go ahead and have some fun! (BTW, my results were right on the money!)

Your Kiss is Black Your kisses are amazing. You put a lot of effort into your kissing technique. You are a perfectionist, and you never leave any kissing detail to chance. When you're kissing, you like to be in charge. You don't enjoy someone else taking the lead. You know you're the best kisser. In fact, you're often disappointed by how other people kiss.

Kissing Type: Thoughtful
People See Your Kisses as: Amazingly unreal You Kiss
Best With: A Pink Kisser
Stay away from: A Green Kisser

An Insightful Horoscope... Again

From 7/7/2007
Once again, my horoscope for the day seems to be right on. And today should be a perfect day, since it is 07-07-07.

But alas, noticing the mood I woke up in (somewhat melancholy) added to what my horoscope predicts (see below), I doubt it. There's really not much more I can say... sigh.

Aquarius: January 20 - February 18
It may seem like neither side of the bed is the right side to wake up on, dear Aquarius.
The only solution you may be able to come up with today is to just go back to bed.
Focus on your heart, because it is trying to tell you that it needs some attention.
Emotions may be running quite high, so be extra careful of how you treat yourself and others.

07-07-07

From 07-07-07
Today is quite the popular day! The number 7 seems to be considered a lucky number for most, so it only seems logical that today would be important. From what I've been watching in the news, today is extremely popular for those getting married.

The number 7 for me is actually more of a favorite number than really having any luck behind it. Who knows why I even like it, I just do and have since young. While playing softball as a teenager, I always had the number 7 on my shirt. If I could have controlled my volleyball jersey number, I would have done the same.

So would I have chosen today to get married (if there were a man in the picture)? I do believe so. It would certainly make the Anniversary a bit easier to remember, right? But since that isn't the case, I'm destined to treat it like any other Saturday. I may just get my car washed today. Is that worth remembering? LOL

What will you say you were doing on 07-07-07 ?

A Re-Run Blog From Last Summer: "It's DAMN Hot!"

From July 2007
Today it was forcasted to get up to 107 degrees. I'm not sure what it actually reached, but it certainly felt like it. And it's been this way for most of the week. It's almost like dejavu, as I recall a blog that I wrote last summer:

"It's Damn HOT! I don't know if it's that I'm getting older by the minute or if for some reason I'm going through a stage of intolerance, but the heat this summer is really making me grumpy! I know that talking about the weather really isn't all that interesting, but this 100+ degree stuff is a drag. So please excuse my whining. I can't wait for the cool crisp air of autumn- my favorite season. (It doesn't help that the stupid swamp cooler that came with this house I bought is worthless as far as adequately cooling things down.) Alright, enough negative talk.... I will strive for more positive words tomorrow." - July 18, 2006

There's not much difference in my attitude, although I do seem to be handling the heat a little bit better than last year (thank goodness, since I was quite crabby!)